I have always been one who wears my heart on my sleeve. I am super gullible. I believe everything someone says. Im slowly learning though that i should not believe everything i hear. Trust is a big thing with me. I used to trust so easily but now i dont trust all that well. At times, i feel like i cant trust anyone and that everyone is out to get me. LOL. this is not always the case.
After getting out of a three year relationship that had more downs than ups, i never thought that i would fall in love again with anyone. I especially didnt think that it would have happened so fast. But it has. August 4th marks one of the best decisions that i have ever made. I started officially dating the guy that i consider to be one of my best friends. I trust him with everything i have.
I have lately discovered that i have been trying to push him away. Why? I dont know. I honestly am afraid of lettng my guard down and getting my heart broken again. But I am not going to worry about that. I am not going to let myself miss out on something so wonderful & on something that i have been so happy with thus far.
And i know that there are people out there who are waiting for us to fail as a couple and im not going to let others unhappiness affect my happiness. Yes, I have made bad choices in the past and have been a huge bitch to people at times, but with Jordan and his son, i am finding myself trying to become the better person. With them, i feel like I can be myself and they'll love me for who i am.
I used to always say that i didnt care what others had to say about me, but that's a lie. Now its starting to be true. Lol. I only need Jordan's and my family's approval for anything in my life.
Being with Jordan has been the best decision that i have ever made! I dont regret one single moment of it. They are my world!
♥
xoxo
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