I Love the Way You Love Me

• You have the key to my heart, so make sure you don't lose it.
• One universe, eight planets, seven countries, over a hundred countries, fifty states, over six billion people, and i'm lucky enough to meet you.
• When you have a man, who makes everything worth it, one who treats you like you are her world, and one you can count on for anything, you know you have love.
• I never would have guessed that i'd be with you, but i started to talk to you, then fell for you, one thing led to another, and now i am the happiest i have ever been.
• i think its totally amazing how all these years, you were right there but our paths didn't cross til the exact perfect time that we needed each other.

Feels Like Home

Describes feelings perfectly

To The Love of My Life

Dear Jordan,


If you were to ask me three months ago if i would be truly happy again, i would tell you that no i probably wouldn't be. But i look at where i am at now, and i have never been happier. July 9th was  probably one of the better days of my life. that was the day that i finally got the strength to leave a bad relationship behind & look towards my future. I never knew that you would be a huge part of my future. & you are. And honestly, August 4th was probably one of the best days ever. That was the day that you officially asked me out. I am so glad that you did & that i accepted. LOL.


I know that at the beginning people probably thought that it was too soon or that we wouldn't make that long, but honestly, the timing couldn't have been any better. When i first got out of my last relationship, i thought that i could never love again or trust anybody ever again for that matter, but you proved me wrong. You showed me that genuine & nice guys truly do exist. You are my Prince Charming, as corny as it may sound. You are an amazing, good-looking guy & you're a wonderful father. I feel completely safe with you. I can let my guard down and i know that you won't judge me. I can be my true self, even when i'm moody & having a horrible personality problem, you still accept me.


And the more i get to know you and your family, I feel more blessed to be able to say that i know you & your entire family. You all are so wonderful and i have never felt more welcome than your family has made me feel. & i look forward to every Tuesday night for family dinner night with you all. Even if I'm only there for an hour, i always leave happy & feeling blessed. And you have a wonderful, perfect, and adorable little boy. Everytime I see you with him, it absolutely melts my heart. (in a good way, LOL). You always put him first before yourself. I have so much admiration for you. Your son is one lucky little boy!!


There is nothing that i wouldn't do for you and your family. My outlook on life has definitely improved & got more positive when i met you. :)


xoxo Jen

Who Are You When Im Not Looking

I have always been one who wears my heart on my sleeve. I am super gullible. I believe everything someone says. Im slowly learning though that i should not believe everything i hear. Trust is a big thing with me. I used to trust so easily but now i dont trust all that well. At times, i feel like i cant trust anyone and that everyone is out to get me. LOL. this is not always the case.

After getting out of a three year relationship that had more downs than ups, i never thought that i would fall in love again with anyone. I especially didnt think that it would have happened so fast. But it has. August 4th marks one of the best decisions that i have ever made. I started officially dating the guy that i consider to be one of my best friends. I trust him with everything i have.

I have lately discovered that i have been trying to push him away. Why? I dont know. I honestly am afraid of lettng my guard down and getting my heart broken again. But I am not going to worry about that. I am not going to let myself miss out on something so wonderful & on something that i have been so happy with thus far.

And i know that there are people out there who are waiting for us to fail as a couple and im not going to let others unhappiness affect my happiness. Yes, I have made bad choices in the past and have been a huge bitch to people at times, but with Jordan and his son, i am finding myself trying to become the better person. With them, i feel like I can be myself and they'll love me for who i am.

I used to always say that i didnt care what others had to say about me, but that's a lie. Now its starting to be true. Lol. I only need Jordan's and my family's approval for anything in my life.

Being with Jordan has been the best decision that i have ever made! I dont regret one single moment of it. They are my world!
♥
xoxo

Come A Little Closer

God Gave Me You

My life has been absolutely perfect lately. I can honestly say that i have never been so happy. I have a wonderful boyfriend who has a wonderful son and an amazing family. I feel so blessed to have them all in my life! 

I absolutely adore Jordan's son. I love this little boy! i treat him as if he was my own. I feel myself growing up alittle bit more each day. When he's around, i worry more about what he's eating, drinking, doing. I constantly worry about what he's doing, if things are good enough for him, is he eating nutritiously. I worry more about him than i do with my appearance or anything really relating to me. Because its not about me, its about this little boy who is absolutely wonderful!!

I am in complete awe with Jordan. he's absolutely the best thing i could ever ask for. He accepts me for who i am, dingy self and all. We're pretty inseparable. No complaints here either. :)  we just had our 1 month! which is pretty exciting! I cannot picture him not in my life. 

When You Say Nothing At All

I never thought that i would be so happy so fast after a terrible breakup. But i am. I've never been happier with Jordan. He is absolutely amazing. I worry everyday that something might happen and he'll walk away. I feel like he makes me a better person. He's an amazing father, a wonderful boyfriend, a terrific son, a phenomenal boyfriend, and all-in-all a fantastic person. He accepts me for who i am.

Thursday was my 24th birthday! I got to celebrate it with this amazing guy! The only thing that would have made it better was if his little guy would have been able to be there. :) Love that little boy to pieces!! But i digress. LOL. My mother made angel food cake stuffed with strawberry creme pudding and the icing was Cool Whip. So fricken delicious. 

We ended up heading to Kendalls. I ended up drinking 3 sex on the beaches, 2 jager bombs, 2 jello shots, and a smirnoff grape. Yummy! Danielle and I wound up singing karaoke to "Til The World Ends" by Britney! :) We destroyed it. LOL. After we left Kendalls, we headed to Denny's to get some grub. I actually stayed up longer than jordan this time. haha

I had set pretty high expectations for my birthday and i was pretty bummed that it wasn't as exciting as i had planned on it being but i got to spend it with my boyfriend. That definitely help make this one a pretty good birthday!! :)

One thing I can say, i'd be lost without him!! I'm so attached to him! Ive never been happier.

:)